we have the softest heartbeats by paperheartsyndrome, literature
Literature
we have the softest heartbeats
i don't know what it means when you say
you don't know what i mean.
the implications of my every sentence stain the
atmosphere like neon lights and i'm left wondering
how you can still be so clueless. how after
all this time. after all the sentences we traded
with each other. after every minute that makes
the miles smaller. you still don't get it. how
you could still not get me.
this is the part where i need to remind myself
that you were never mine.
you've never been anyone's because there isn't
a sentence simple enough to make you stay so
three words and eight letters won't leave you
breathless in between my bed sheet
i'm the worst person i know. by paperheartsyndrome, literature
Literature
i'm the worst person i know.
You remind me of every mistake I was too afraid to make.
I don't know where this leaves me now. This is like standing in front of your living room window and watching all the seasons slip by in the course of a moment. Forever gone in less than a second. I don't know if you've noticed yet, but time simply makes everything seem fleeting until we've already forgotten what we promised we'd never forget. It's funny how selective our memories become. How the past clouds over until it's nearly impossible to distinguish the shapes of the feelings that were once so familiar or the outline of your smilethe sound of your voice. It all fades. Then
what burns in the fire just ends up as coals. by ohsparrowsong, literature
Literature
what burns in the fire just ends up as coals.
i hated you because
you could keep quiet
when i couldn't, and the careful
nature you held onto until
the precise & perfect
moment.
it was all i could do
not to explode
but i was still fire
and spread slow,
slick & smooth beneath
your skin
and i kept my tongue still
firmly in my mouth
not letting anything escape
save for tiny breaths
that i was sure
weren't enough to keep
my lungs satisfied
and the fire spread
until i was wildfire
and my bones were kindling
and you just sat there
keeping quiet
while i burned alive.
wondering when you
would ever speak.
broken hearts don't beat by paperheartsyndrome, literature
Literature
broken hearts don't beat
sometimes, it's morning. and i've forgotten to brush my hair again. or how to tie my shoes or what my name sounds like. and that i don't believe in anything anymore. and that's when i realize that i'm losing little pieces of myself to you.
and the tip of my tongue is stained with the taste of stale paint from the renovating you've done with my mind. and for the next four hundred and seventy three and a half hours i'll be staring at the ceiling. since i'm waiting for your flavor to fade. or maybe i'm just waiting for you to come back to me. since my fingertips are losing their feeling. and the strands of my hairs are splitting. i'm aging in r
these feelings should be finite by paperheartsyndrome, literature
Literature
these feelings should be finite
I'm terrified and I know there's nothing unique about this, but I'm standing here completely out of touch with the rest of the world, realizing for the first time that we all feel things a little bit differently, which is why this doesn't hurt for you at all. I figure the only logical reason for how you could do this as if it means nothing was if it really did mean nothing at all for you. It's easier to hate you this way. It's easier to forget you without the burn of your kiss against my skin. It's easier to stay mad if I don't have to remember the way that it felt. Most of all, I can forget this as if it's a memory in someone else's lifetime
boys who love their grandmothers by learningtobefree, literature
Literature
boys who love their grandmothers
never fall in love with a boy who loves his grandmother.
he will be too gentle with your lips,
too sincere when he whispers blessings into your ears
pleading that he doesn't deserve you.
his tongue will not slither between your teeth.
instead, the heat of his mouth will melt your scar tissue
until there is no trace of your travels.
never fall in love with a boy who loves his grandmother.
he knows patience.
you will try to convince him
that it is one of the many virtues
you don't yet possess,
but he will dig through the flesh in your ribcage
until he finds it lodged beneath everything
you're too scared to confess.
he will teach you forg
Must say, this is uber uber cool for me :) Although now that I have the chance to try it out I have no idea what exactly I do want to try out....awkward, well the whole journal skin thing is quite appealing :D
I'm a little late on the new year uptake but I'm trying to avoid to doing homework right now (cause you know...school is tomorrow and all) but I just wanted to post a new little thing for the new year and make some promises.
Won't go into a lot of resolutions because I only have so much willpower so I need to focus it on what's important to me.
Alas for this new year and with me being 17 now........what an awkward age
-not delete sucky deviations off of my deviantart so I can actually see my process...and the rest of the world can see my suck
-vow to do more digital, squeeze out the time from life, and experiment with it and do more work